Musings of a Purple Circle

Pondering... 11/23/2008

Could I move to Thailand?
Would it be worth it to get my master's?
It would definitely be an experience!
Could I be away from CCC that long and my family?
Is conducting really what I want my life to be?

Should I pursue something else?


I always knew prayer was powerful but it isn't until you see things start to happen in your own life that things really start to click.  Last week, I had a moment with Patricia about school... working so hard to achieve my dreams... and this is all I get sort of things.  So, we prayed a lot for a better week at school and viola!  It's amazing what God can do in our lives if we just ask!  So, I've been praying a lot more...thanking Him a LOT more... praying for God to bring someone into my life and let them stay!  I've been hurt so many times and yet I can still love without condition!  God has given me SUCH a capacity to love. So, where is he?  Where is my Godly guy?  It's hard when God answers us with silence.  I try to be patient but that's an area I wasn't blessed greatly in.  So, until he answers me with something other than no or silence... I remind myself over and over again that God may delay but He doesn't disappoint! 

Since... 09/23/2008

Since I've been single I've:
*Lost 10 pounds.
*Bought an entire new wardrobe.
*Spent more time at church.
*Spent more time with my family.
*Learned to cook - I'm a mean chef!
*Spent more time working at my job.
*Been more organized.
*Felt a lot better about myself.


It's impossible to love one another, the way God wants us to, without getting hurt.
The question is, how do we do that knowing we'll get hurt?



You used to smile when it rained.
Now it pains you when you hear the thunder.
You think you've seen it all
And you say you're world's too small
And you face your days without a sense of wonder.

Call to me and I will show you great and mighty things.
Great and mighty things if you just call to me, I will show you great and mighty things.
Great and mighty things you've' never seen
Things you've never known
Things you've only heard.
Things you can't imagine.

You want to know it's worth the effort,
You won't be left behind in your condition.
You think that's all there is and you've nothing more to give.
And you've placed your faith in your own strenght and wisdom,
Call to me and i will show you g reat and mighty things.
Great and mighty things if you just call to me, I will show you great and mighty things.

Great and mighty things you've' never seen
Things you've never known
Things you've only heard.
Things you can't imagine.

When you feel yourself sinkin'
And you wish you could walk on water
Call out to me.

When you feel the sand shiftin
And you need a firm foundation,
Call out to me.


A few things I've learned/done through faith this summer.

*Learning to trust God... not just knowing it but actually doing it.
*Praying out loud with someone else for the first time.
*Praying more in general.
*Volunteering at church has taught me that the glory isn't for me - it's for Him.  I always knew that.. but never knew what it felt like. I can feel Him working in my heart.
*Learning to be content being single.. If God has it in His plan for me to be single.. so be it. I can be happy with that because all means all.  He's got my back - he can see the city when all I can see is the traffic.

Philosophy 07/12/2008

7:34 PM

Philosophy, as defined by Webster's Dictionary, is a belief (or system of beliefs) accepted as authoritative by some group or school, the rational investigation of questions about existence and knowledge and ethics or any personal belief about how to live or how to deal with a situation.

A great part of my philosophy on music education has been derived from musical experiences in my own life. These experiences have helped me to understand that music education should be guaranteed to every child, that music makes the ordinary extraordinary, that music offers students the opportunity for a safe hide-a-way from the stresses of life and a successful gateway into the real world, that music is a constant, and that music offers students a niche to fit into.

As with any musical philosophy, experiences are what make up the ideas and questions asked. Music makes these experiences memorable and allows a person such as myself to recall them and write them into a philosophy.  My music education was rewarding thus far and it is my hope that my personal philosophy

Random Things 06/28/2008

7:52 PM

*I love to play Guitar Hero.
*Someone that made me laugh today was Caden.
*Last night I stayed up until 12.
*If I could move somewhere else, I would move to Holland.
*I prefer texting over calling.
*My birthday is in October.
*My favorite soda is Sunkist.
*I wish I was in Chicago for a visit.
*I'm more of an individual than an outgoing person.
*I can't spend a day w/o my cell phone.
*The last person I hugged was Amanda.
*I feel good about life in it's current state.

The Mountains 06/20/2008

5:15 PM

A bit of what I'm reading from "Who Has Your Heart" by Emily Ryan. This particular bit really spoke to me today:

The mountains are where God dwells, and running to the mountains is like running to the arms of our Father. We need only to open our eyes to the One who draws us there. To the One who made the mountains.

The mountains provide a place of isolation, a place seperate and private from the pleasure of daily living. In the mountains you are free from sudden interruptions, distracting noises, and unwelcome guests.

There are no cell phones in the mountains. No email. No televisions.

Just you, and silence, and God.

Being alone and being still are sometimes not enough. In order to make the most of your mountain moments, you must realize that proximity to people is not the issue. The issue is your proximity to God. Having a true mountaintop experience does not involve your being alone with your thoughts; it involves your being alone with His thoughts. For it's in the silence that God sometimes speaks the loudest.

The Lord promises us that if we go to the mountains, He will appear. The mountains are His dwelling place and it is there that He reveals Himself to us. "Send forth your light and your truth, let them guide me; let them bring me to your holy mountian, the the place where you dwell" (Psalm 43:3)

We must run to the mountains, confident that the Lord will meet us there just as He promised.

We must pray

We must praise

"Exalt the Lord our God and worship at His holy mountain, for the Lord our God is Holy" Psalm 99:9

It's easy to worship and praise and sing to God when all is going according to our masterplan. But genuine worship is not convenient worship - it's constant worship.

Going to the mountains regularly will allow us to experience God's provisions firsthand. I look ahead another two, five, or ten years of being single and think I don't have what it takes to make it. And I'm right. I don't have what it takes to make it through another summer filled with couples showers and June weddings. But I do have what it takes to make it through today because that's how God provides. He provides what we need when we need it and as we need it.

When God calls us to the mountains, it's because He wants us to see things from His point of view, and God always sees the big picture.  He sees the forests when all we see are trees. He sees the city when all we see is traffic.

He sees eternity when all we see is today.

There's nothing magical about meeting God at the mountains. The events leading up to our circumstances don't undo themselves. The people who've wronged us don't disappear. The outcome of our situation doesn't change. However, when we meet our God at the mountains, something miraculous does happen. Suddenly, we're no longer blinded by the details of our every day problems. The fog lifts and the horizon stretches and gradually we begin to see things from God's perspective rather than from our own. Little by little, the big picture slowly comes into focus and our eyes adjust to discover a world and a play that is greater than we could have ever imagined.

Stuff 05/19/2008

Because we live in a fallen world, we will experience negatives in our lives. Heartache and disappointment will come our way. We experience "stuff" we don't deserve, don't want and can't send back. It's ours. But thanks be to God, nothing happens in this world that He doesn't know about and that He can't handle. Regardless of the hurts you experience in life, you know Someone Who has the power to take those negatives and turn them into positives. You know Someone Whose holy powers aren't hindered by agenda, by fear, by doubt, by whining, by complaining, or by other people's opinions. Nothing can negate Jesus Christ's power to bring healing and peace. ~Thelma Wells

"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall NOT be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you. For I the Lord am with you." 
Isaiah 43:2